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Name: Eddie
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: Kokomo
Birthday: 5/31/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Ecology, video games, vacations, spending money, cars, alcohol, blowing airhorns at unsuspecting people, wednesday warriors and wednesday night sexcapades, parties
Making fun of both Adams and hitting on their girlfriends/fiancees.
Im a 20 year old Purdue student with crazy hair who likes to have fun.
Turn ons: Bitchy women who like to try to control, intelligence, good looks, a cute smile, hot bodies, outgoingness, and the ability to tell someone to fuck off as loud as possible in the middle of church.
Turn offs: Snobby ass women, strange smells, bad teeth, annoying as hell people who relive the good old days of high school.
Expertise: ecology, video games, lots of useless/ful info, cars, parties
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
10/15/2005
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| Aww I just wrote the best post ever....but its only for my subscribers....I didnt want the censors to come get me
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| So basically part of my life is going to shit and part is really good.
The bad...
Once again I am not able to go a semester without someone getting seriously ill and I have to help. My great aunt dorothy, also she is my next door neighbor is really sick, in the hospital, not coherent (opens her eyes and moans), and this has the WHOLE family distraught. The first doctor gave her a lethal dose of morphine to basically ease her passing and my cousin Kristi didnt know that there were other options... Dorothy is improving...but right now riding down the morphine high....the first doctor was FIRED and they are encouraged to do something about his further career in medicine.
I still cant cry...well sad cry about peoples conditions. I am able to cry when sad about my condition, happy , and dry eyed, but even when in a whole room of my family crying, I still cant cry.....Its weird
The zoo is getting rid of one of my favorite animals, Lola the chicken. She Luvs me and lets me pick her up, flip her over, and scratch her belly. Also she follows me. WHAT CHICKENS DO THIS>>>>HONESTLY
She is blue skinned and has poofy short white feathers with a little cotton ball on her head. SHE IS DIRTY...but i love her. The problem is that she just does what she wants. Which is of ten sneaking out to eat tomatoes out of the vegetable patch, or wander through the parking lot....or the rest of the park....THIS IS BAD.
I have been given the option of taking her...but it is not feasible... : (
PRIDE THE EAGLE DIED.....he was a goofball....most eagles have a boring bland personality...but he was different. He would look around and when people werent looking he would go under the sprinkler and open his wings and be like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and look really silly.
I am giving up on a love interest. I have decided that this girl really is too good for me. I feel bad hitting on her because she is so sweet. Yes she goes through the conversations with me about being unhappy in her relationship, but she wont do anything about it and I feel bad making her cheat. So I give up.
I still hate my aunt : ( but trying to get over it
THE GOOD
I love myself unconditionally now.
My big head
big foread
ass tattoo
I love it all
This is the first time for all of that.
I love my friends who care about me
I love the little supporting notes I get saying Im awesome and people care
I had a firend tell me that they loved me...awkwardly....and i havent decided on pursueing that ....and this has been suspected for a while....
I get overbooked for weekends and that makes me happy.
Yah this sounds sappy...but deal with it
smiling
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| So lately I have noticed a positive change in my actions
1 not going out as much and when out not gettin completely crazy
2 Im gonna be mentoring like 2 ppl
3 I have been doing alot of good samaritan things lately
4 I am caring about ppl that earlier I wouldnt have
Yesterday I went to a little girls house who went to a few of my camps this summer. She just got out of riley and is really cute...I guess she had a stroke and lost control of one side of her body....When she goes home she plays zookeeper and one of the characters she plays is Mr. Eddie....so of course I had to give my support. she is great
also i make connections with alot of the campers and they all really like me...I feel like a big brother...
One even wants me to baby sit for her....
also I have a soft spot for kids like me...or who will become like me....
and also for the "special" kids that I would have harshly made fun of at that age......I think camp should be great for everyone...
Job #1 is make sure they have fun and stay safe 2 is learn 3 is protect animals.....
Also I have some really cool ppl to hang out with ,......Kieth from the zoo is awesome.....we are gonna hang out when school is in session.....and lynn and val.,kat,.......and adria....also some jzk's would hang out....but that would be weird.....
I have also been hanging out with jums, chad, nathan, brea, paul, and a few others.....as well as my ex
Actually my ex and i went out tonight...it was ok
I dont know why they keep pressin' things when they are the one that "ended" it...not me....I really cant be friends
They keep callin and they are perfect for me.....but I cant...they got themselves into that and until "that" is gone...I wont give in......had the chance tonight....and i have been invited to their current place for dinner and cactus tomorrow....not goin.....maybe cactus...but not with them...
I would be willin to give it a go again.......if it could be like it was before.....I still have a lot of love ....
I do have a new person i like....but she is a little...well alot of ditzy....ugh
I hate love.........so much energy is wasted
On the upside....Im gonna have a good weekend...Im goin to vegas next weekend.....and i do have an awesome life and job......
now if i could just move out....and get back with my ex....and win the lotto.....my life would be perfect..........
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| OK my life is crazy again.....
And my ex...ugh...long story...no escape....
Also i feel that my home friends are disconnecting from me....I am usually the one who calls.....and i decided to have them call...the phone works both ways .....
i am hangin out with zoo ppl, jummie and a few randoms....ooh and chad and bre
so yay
umm i guess
EDIT...i decided to take an easy night at home to de-stress.......and all ive done is sit and think about ppl i have cared about .....and i am wondering WTF happened to them....I kno where 4 are...I havent heard from Kelli, umm the one who went to indy, the one who lives in chicago.....so yeah...i am waaaay tooooo mushy
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| Ok so friday was really hectic at the zoo....this week was my first week of leading a camp...and it pretty much went great.....except for
1 i had a special needs child who was a handful
2 i had a runner....not when i was workin, but in my camp
3 i had a borderline code black which is a dangerous person in the park....not when i was workin.....
4 and a child that left me worried
The special needs kid was ok...his mom told me to "ransom his aunts present" and i did so he was good
The runner was taken care of and yelled at
The creepy guy was just creepy so no action
the child who worried me still does Her name is M and she is a very confusing little girl....she is depressed, loud, bossy and at the same time needy...I think her parents brush it off, and unless a child is in danger...there isnt anything I can do....so....yah Just so you know...she had 3 breakdowns in camp, hugged only during a breakdown....started crap with others ..... and had a feather she named handsome.....the feather thing and the fact that she said "this is better than home...all i do is get yelled at" tore me up....the feather, handsome is a normal goose feather that she gave a haircut to, a necklace...and in the end packed it luggage and made it clothes and a blanket.....during one of her breakdowns, she said handsome was her only friend...this made me sad....later she did something and i told her to put the feather down...this started the clothes making and everything....she said she wanted to send handsome off in a canoe so i made her a paper canoe and she packed the clothes and everything in it.....by this time after seeing all of this ....I gave in and told her she could take the feather home......her mom is allergic... so i gave her a bag to keep it in....i feel soooooo bad for her....but at least she has handsome and his clothes and canoe at home to be friends with 
After camp on friday we had the VIP night .....we took animals around...i got stuck with a hedgehog cuz nikki stole my sweet bird soolai before i had the chance to get her.....but i traded for lola later
BTW soolai is an african grey parrot who is in love with me...Lola is a chicken who is in love with me ......lola will let me and only me roll her over and scratch her belly...then she ll just lay there on her back...what chicken does that???
So yeah...i pawned the hedgehog off on a coworker and took lola...then i drank some margaritas....it was a crazy day at work...
OK and this girl i know is awesome and i am really starting to like her....she is a good replacement for the last....
BUT
I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED
my ex called me...we faught ....then we kinda got back together .......BAD EDDIE...especially sincethe new girl called and wanted me to go to a keggar that .......ugh bad eddie.....so yeah me and my ex talked and faught then went our separate way
I have a new ringtone for them...since I have a feelin that they wanna get back together....sorry jerkface...you made your choice....I gave in and met you once....thanks for the final memories and the earlier ones too....but im not givin in again...and I MEAN IT.....enjoy living your life with that person who the only reason you stayed with them is cuz i didnt want to be just with you....sham life sham engagement sham marriage real divorce in a year....HAH
but yeah ive got a good thing beginning for me and im not gonna let ME, my ex, or anybody else screw this up....
UPDATE: My ex is callin....im not gonna answer....
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